My Awakening Story – Becoming a Spiritual Healer and Teacher

My healing journey started around 2014, after a period of severe depression. I had always been a very sensitive child. I asked big questions about life and the universe, and I could feel my own energy and everyone else’s. The hard part was that I couldn’t tell my emotions apart from other people’s. I absorbed the conflict, anger and grief of the adults around me, especially my family, and it felt like a battle inside my body. I couldn’t put it into words. I didn’t have any energetic boundaries, and on top of that, my undiagnosed ADHD.

On the outside, I was the “gifted kid.” I was top of my class, and in a family where everyone had degrees, there was this pressure to perform. That got me into one of the most prestigious universities in my country. But once I got there, I felt disconnected from everything. I didn’t know what to do with my life. My parents fought constantly, money was tight, and I tried to be the peacemaker while my empath soul turned all of it inward. I failed my second semester and felt like an absolute failure. I was ashamed, and I couldn’t see any light at the end of the tunnel. Stress, self-hatred and depression grew from there.

By late 2014, I realized I couldn’t keep living by other people’s truths. I needed to be myself and follow my own path, or it would literally feel like death to me. So I went to a therapist. I wanted guidance, and honestly, someone to tell me I wasn’t going crazy.

I walked into her office, we exchanged a few words, she asked how she could help me…

And I just started crying. I broke down in the first five minutes.

She held space for me with so much compassion. I truly felt she saw me, my soul, my essence. I don’t remember much of what we talked about, because I had a huge knot in my throat and could only mumble between little cries. What I remember is her serenity, and how it helped me put myself back together.

Calmly, she suggested a book called “The Knight in Rusty Armor,” and she also suggested I start a meditation practice. I was like, “Huh? I thought you were going to give me some kind of medication.” She just said, “Let’s start with this first.”

It’s funny, because I feel that was the only “push” I needed to head toward my own emotional liberation. Someone who truly saw me. And I think she knew that.

I went home and read the book, and it sparked a thirst for more spiritual reading. I also started meditating almost every day. I was very disciplined about it. I’d work out first thing in the morning, then sit in stillness for half an hour, sometimes an hour. Nothing fancy. Just breathing, watching my thoughts, and being with myself, going a little deeper each time.

And one day, it happened.

Slowly, without even realizing it, I slipped into a trance-like state, going deeper within, layer by layer. Then I felt an immense, glorious, blissful peace. It felt like a rebirth. It was as if my psyche had been wiped clean and reinstalled. All the parts that were never mine to carry were gone, including the painful emotions, the toxicity and the generational weight. What was left was my true self, my essence, my connection with God/Universe/Everything That Is. I call it my “spontaneous awakening,” and it was the beginning of my “Second Life”.

I felt like I was seeing the world for the first time, like a newborn. It was like living in 144p and suddenly being catapulted into 4K HD. I could spend hours admiring a tree and all the details of its leaves, and feel myself as the tree. You hear people say “we are all one, we are love, we are God,” but this time I felt it on a visceral level, not as an idea. I saw Myself in Everything.

It’s funny, my mind hardly produced a “thought” in a day. I actually had to make an effort to think something, which was so weird and fascinating. I wasn’t spaced out. I was absolutely present. My senses were wide open to everything around me, and at the same time I was going deeper into my own essence.

That state lasted about two or three weeks. During that time, I learned so many things. Or better said, I remembered. I realized that the present moment is eternal, and that it really is all we have. I realized we are truly ONE. You don’t end with your skin. You are also the air, the chair you’re sitting in and the space between objects. You are your loved ones.

It was also like my soul and spirit guides were “downloading” a 1TB zip file of teachings into my little human brain. (Years later I’m unpacking all of that into what I call my Soul Design framework)

Of course, that blissful state eventually faded, and that was perfectly okay. It was part of the process of integrating everything into my physical, everyday life.

I came back to a new “normal”, and not a bad one at all.

What I experienced still lives in me like a soft murmur at the core of my Being, and I can return to it whenever I need.

It’s what we all are.

Here’s what that taught me. We don’t need to chase that high.

The real work is what we do with the inner knowing and the remembering.

After my awakening, I had a crazy thirst to find out if anyone else had experienced something similar. The closest I found was Eckhart Tolle’s “The Power of Now,” and I felt so validated. From there I read the Advaita and non-duality teachers, like Adyashanti, Ramana Maharshi, Rupert Spira and Krishnamurti.

The awakening also lifted the veil that was blocking my intuition and psychic abilities. They were mine all along, but I was afraid to express them.

I studied Reiki, crystal therapy and EFT tapping. I went back to university to study Psychology and Somatic Education, and my thesis explored Reiki and its impact on the people who practice it. I also did my yoga teacher training, which I loved, and this somatic part of the equation was the foundation for my psychic and channeling skills to flourish in a healthy and balanced way. I started channeling my essence and spirit guides, thanks to the help of teachers like Jane Roberts/Seth, Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer, and my friend and mentor Troy Tolley.

Most of all, I felt my purpose come back.

Two words. To inspire.

It was always within me.

It’s about sharing that energy and that truth, not in a pushy way, but as a gentle invitation. I know what it’s like to be shattered and to think very demoralizing thoughts. So I know I can help others going through the same thing. We are not our thoughts, our trauma or the baggage we carry. We are beyond that.

I’m here to inspire you to come Home to Yourself.

So you can know, with unshakeable certainty, that you are worthy.

That shame is not real. That you are loved.

That the tunnel always has light at the end of it, even when you can’t see it yet.

I have to admit that after my awakening, other painful and complicated things happened to me. Spiritual realizations don’t erase the harm of the physical plane, or the ignorant, malicious and hateful people that impact us.

But I was equipped to deal with the trauma in a more empowered and conscious way.

I’m still human, and I still feel everything. I get sad. I grieve and I cry, and I feel angry about the tragedies happening to innocent people.

It would be an illusion not to feel touched. At the same time, I’m able to zoom out and see the bigger picture, and see where and how I am most equipped to help.

I let myself feel my whole spectrum of emotions, knowing they will pass.

I actually love crying with all my soul, and laughing with all my soul.

This is me, loving myself as I experience life in a human form.

We are here to fully experience life on Earth, and to gather the learning and the love from everything, everyone and ourselves.

We are really here to love and be loved.

Love is what we always return to 💗

These days, I channel the teachings of my spirit guides through my Soul Design framework. It’s my way of blending spirituality with psychology. It helps you understand your Soul Age, your Soul Archetype and the patterns that shape how you how you love, how you process energy, how you transmute fear, and how you express yourself (known as the Overleaves). I also guide EFT tapping and create meditations to help your nervous system feel safe holding more joy and abundance. (Catch me on YouTube!) For those who want more hands-on guidance, I offer personalized readings and coaching.

Thank you for being here!

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I am super passionate about my work, and I’m always here to help.

Welcome to my sanctuary for spiritual seekers😊🧚

Big Soul Hugs!
Ro 🌞